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Craziness Never Stops

Hiya guys and gals! So this weekend was so stressful and crazy. It started pretty calm I stayed in Fri night to relax and do some cooking for my spa party I hosted at my house on Sunday. I cooked had a nice glass of wine and jammed out. Totally relaxed until a terrible call came. My dad was in the hospital again. This is the 3rd time in 2 months. I’ve been trying to stay calm and collect but its starting to really scare me. He went in for this lungs and his heart. He is going to see a specialist for both again this week. If your religious please put in a word to the big guy for my family please. Then yesterday morning my 8 month preggers cousin got in a bad accident. She is doing good today and so is the baby. Thank god. So I apologize for not tweeting a lot and being very active. I’ve just had a lot on my mind.

Besides that craziness of trying to keep sane and not a complete emotional wreck I have been spending a lot of time with my family. Helping dad out and being with my brother. I’ve got all the rooms at the house full so I’ve been working on keeping that a healthy and happy house. My friends are mainly sick lately. This fucking weather is really hard to stay healthy. With all the pollen, dust, and dander in the air every one is sick coughing and sneezing and I swear people act like kids and never wash their hands. lol I’ve been pulling fast ones on everyone and being like hey smell this new hand sanitizer I got from bath and body works! It smells great on! hahaha I’m going around sanitizing everyone!!! tehehehe The weather drops and warms up, rains, shine, its all up in the air. I can’t wait to sweat!!!! I’m ready for summer baby! Oh am I ever!!! Wakeboard and boat are calling my name like you wouldn’t believe! Hopefully I can spend lots of time with my dad on the river this summer! :) That would be sweet!

I’ve been spending a lot of time planning and getting things together for my sister-in-laws baby shower. I am doing work on this thing! It’s going to be so amazing! Every time I see her I get so emotional cause I am so happy to be an aunt again!!!!! And I am so happy everything is going good with their pregnancy. Can’t wait to see my new niece or nephew! Ahhhhhhh :) :)

I’m gonna get back on my grind!!!! I hope everyone has a great day! XOXO

Madden

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Sadly Sick … boo :(

Can’t wait to be 100%! And not SICK :(

After a week of being sick I sure am over it. I hate not being on the go. It really sucks. I hate sitting around. It drives me nuts. I’m about to go loco!! Lol That is if I had the energy to. Lol

It all started Thursday nigh. I went out with my girl friends to dance and while I was dancing I just didn’t feel right. My joints hurt. I felt achy, so I quit drinking alcohol, started drinking water, and kept dancing. At midnight my girl Lo and I went home and went to bed. She said I tossed and turned all night. I did because my legs hurt so badly. Then I felt like crap the next day. I didn’t think about it, I just though I was hung over because I only had soup and a grill cheese for dinner that night and not a lot to absorb the alcohol. Well that was not the case. I was getting sick and that did it. I slept almost all day on Friday. I ran some errands then went back home and went to bed. I’m never that tired. I always have a ton of energy. Well on Saturday I started to feel better. I figured I just needed a lil more sleep. When the weather changes so much like it has it really take a toll on my body. I hate it. That’s one thing I miss about California I barely ever-got sick. Here in IL my immune system is always put through the ringer. L Did I ever tell you guys that when I was born my mom had pneumonia and I was sick with it too? The doc says that’s one of the reasons I’ve always been so susceptible to getting whatever’s flying around. That why I juice, take vitamins, and eat so much lol I need those calories to fight things off! So any who… Then I felt pretty good on Sunday just stuffy but it was weird cause when I went to brunch with the girls I had a grill cheese and soup and I only ate half the grill cheese. Usually I can eat quit a bit, and I have to tell myself to stop. lol Then I went riding and I ran out of endurance so fast. I knew something was going on cause I had been riding on and off all week. I went to bed early and when I woke up Monday I felt dead. Absolutely NO energy, no desire to eat, my stomach was upset, my throat hurt, and I couldn’t breath, it was bad. So that was that it was time to chill out and take it easy. Ever since then I have been laying around and pretty much sleeping all day. I went to the doctor and have a viral infection in my intestine and upper respiratory infection… no good. He said I must have eaten something bad or got it from someone. I haven’t been kissing on anyone so I must have eaten something. I eat a lot of fruits and veggies so I guess that makes it easier for me to get something like that. I can’t fucking win. Lol I do.. I get it, I don’t.. I get it. The worst part of this whole deal is one.. work, and two.. it’s PEAK time for me to ride. This weather is cool, it rains every once in a while so the tracks tacky, it’s perfect. Well, not for a couple weeks now. I will not push it but I can’t go that long with out riding. Even if I have to cruise around, I will. It’s always something! Wish me back to health guys! I need the help! ;)

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On a Jet Plane….

I’m leaving on a jet plane, but I’ll be back Monday. ;)

Heading down to Texas to visit friends and family for a Easter party. I am very excited and blessed to be getting away for the weekend. It’s been on hell of a week. I got into something last weekend and this week outside and it made my skin super sensitive, with an allergic reaction. I am not sure what it is that I am allergic to but it got me good! I did some serious work this weekend though. I raked out the flower bed around my house, got all the dead stuff out, burned it then raked the soil around all the plants. Some of them are already coming up. Hopefully it doesn’t get cold again. I don’t want them to die. Although, I would love for all these little nats everywhere to die. OMG the things are terrible! It hasn’t froze over at all so all those little nats are all coming out at once. I fucking hate bugs, I can get dirty but I hate bugs! Then this week I went and found a bunch of stones and lined the flower bed with them. I also cleaned out the pond and fixed the pump for the waterfall!! It’s coming together! It’s looking very nice! Very relaxing to sit on the porch and drink coffee, or a beer lol. On Wednesdays I did a bunch of yard work and then my two friends came over with their dogs and we hung out side and let the dogs play.

Madison went swimming for the first time! My friends dog Rizzo, went down by the pond and got in a little bit. He was cooling off and we were all watching the dogs play when out of nowhere Madison came running and jumped straight into the pond! She went all the way under and came up freaking out! Poor thing! I don’t think she realized how she would go under. Needless to say by the end of the day she nailed it! Lol The first time she came up she was only using her front paws to swim but the third time she nailed it she was swimming like a pro! I am very excited to take her to the lake and rivers this summer. After a full day of playing outside she actually laid down and chilled in the house the rest of the night!

I am headed to Texas right now! When I left it was raining and a little nippy out. It’s supposed to be 85 all weekend in Texas!!!!!! Woohoo!!!! I am going to use this weekend to chill out and relieve some stress. Then when I get back its back to business, and school. I can’t wait to get back in the studio and shoot! I am hopefully going to start doing some affiliate work as well. I’ve been talking about it for awhile, I want to get my ass in gear before fall semester!!! Hopefully it will help me pay a good chunk of tuition if I can get it up and running fast enough. I really don’t want to have 70k in student loans when I graduate!

Anyone have any good plans for the summer? I am going to wake board every weekend!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol I can’t wait!!! Hopefully if I’m not wakeboarding I will be riding, or working! I wanna keep as busy as possible. I am in the process of designing a chicken coop. lol That’s right! ;) I have started to gather all the materials! My buddies are going to come over and help me build it! I can’t wait! FRESH eggs! This winter I am going to get some of the butchered so that I have fresh chicken breasts as well! Can’t wait!

Me and my accidents… What the f***!! First someone rear ended me, then almost ran me off the road, now I hit someone! Hopefully that “everything comes in 3’s” thing is true and I will be done dealing with accidents! I have to fix my truck still…. Ugh my poor baby. I wish I could just get the whole thing painted and every little scratch on it fixed. I tell ya, one thing after another. Just when ya get caught up, something else comes up! Just gotta keep on truckin.

I hope everyone of you has a GREAT, FUN, HAPPY, weekend!!!! <3 ya!!

XOXO
Madden

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Marley and Me

First off, I want to apologize. I just noticed my Texas journal didn’t post. I know it is probably my fault but I don’t know what happened. I must have lost connection while it was posting. If it is still on my laptop I will post it. I am sorry about that.

What a couple of weeks it has been! I went to Texas, came home and we got a bunch of snow! Couldn’t have asked for more! Lol Except I had to plow, I would have rather just played in it! I ended up plowing for 9 hours straight and it did some serious damage to my back L I plowed in a skid loader. It is a nice one, it has heat and an Ipod hookup so it was super sweet to get to jam to my own tunes and stay warm! Problem was that I am only about 5ft tall and they are not made for people that are my height. Therefore I was reaching to hit the foot pedals and sitting all the way forward on my seat to use the arm controls. I didn’t even think about how much I was putting strain on my body until Saturday when my back got really tight. Sitting forward, reaching, and the repetitive movements got me good. I’ve been really sore ever since. It’s a bummer but hey it was good money. Will I plow 80 driveways again? Probably not, it’s not worth the money to hurt this bad but I will still plow lots and stuff like that. I’ve been feeling better energy wise though. I’ve been juicing every morning! Lol Silly bought me a juicer that I had put on my wishlist! I went to the store and bought broccoli, strawberries, blueberries, grapefruits, cucumbers, tomatoes, carrots, spinach, and apples! I put all of those ingredients in my juicer every morning and drink up! It gives me such a feel good feeling ALL day! I have energy and I feel healthier in general. It’s a lot of calories so your not supposed to juice anytime but in the am if you’re trying to watch weight. But if you get tired during the am or afternoon I highly recommend trying this! I love it!

I went to a Yong the Giant concert and it was ok. It wasn’t anything special. They sounded good but not a concert that I would go and see again. Marilyn Manson is playing soon so I might be getting tickets for that! The Pretty Reckless is opening for him and I love them too! You guys have heard some of their songs in my videos. “Somebody switched my medicine” is one of them and the one that goes, “wait a minute girl, can you show me to the party!” is another one! Both songs are great and the album it’s self is very good! I’ll tell you it’s been a bummer not being able to stream stuff because I don’t have good internet. It sucks!! L I think I am going to make a trip to my Momma’s to download some goodies!

I enrolled Madison in training classes. She is so high energy, I think it will really be great! It gives us at least a couple hours a week with my full attention to her! It will help stimulate her mind and help with her behavior. She is wonderful but man is she a handful! I love her personality; I can’t wait to see how she does! I tweeted it but for those who don’t know, Marley my beta fish, died. L Very sad day. I know it sounds silly that I care so much about a fish but he was super cool to watch. Especially when I am working in my office or relaxing. I just like to watch him swim around. His fins were beautiful and he was such an active beta. The most active beta I have ever had or seen. Turk (named him that cause he’s turquoise), my other beta just sits there all the time. Waaaay boring to watch, half the time I can’t even find him cause he’s hiding. My friends always make fun of me when they go through pictures on my phone because there were always pictures of Marley. T would always say, “were you high taking pictures of Marley again!?” lol my response was always just a laugh! hahaha He was just so beautiful!! I wish I had pictures on my new computer I would post them so you could see! He was the biggest beta fish I have ever seen. Literally, was the size of a medium sized fantail gold fish when he died. So RIP Mar man! I put Turk in the 10 gallon tank but today I am going to take him out. I put new plants and re organized my tank. I am going to take Madison to get her nails clipped and while were are at the pet store I am going to buy some new fish!!!!!!! It am very excited! I set Turk up with some plants in his little tank so he can still hide and I am going to get some cool, colorful new fish! Active, playful fish! I’ll post pics for you!

As far as other life stuff goes…… lol I don’t care or want to talk about it today! Haha nothing bad is going on but today is just not a day I want to think about it! All I care about today is laundry, working out, tanning, fish, and my lil gal Madison.

Have a GREAT rest of your week and weekend!

XOXO
Madden

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Mondays at my house are for cleaning and picking up after the weekend. I get some computer work done, and work on things around the house. I love the little impressions everyone makes when they are here. Some may think it’s messy but the little things that my friends do touch my heart. It’s cute. Friday night my two best friends came over and stayed the night. We ordered carry out from Ruby Tuesdays and rented a couple movies. The girls picked the movies out, The Help, and something else I can’t remember the name. I fell asleep during the last movie. We ate dinner, drank wine, and watched movies. The Help was a good movie; it was sad but very touching and had a great insight on what slavery used to be like. I feel like every history class should watch this movie at some point. After the movie we al went up and slept in my bed. It looked like three little kids tucked in lol. The next morning we had coffee and then went to a local dinner for breakfast. After that I ran home got ready and headed to my aunt for a spa party. Which I think this is the first time I have ever been to a party and actually really was impressed with the product. It was a all natural skin care line. The two ladies that were selling the products faces looked amazing. I know one of them and she really looked rested and healthy. Great skin line, when I finish my Clinique line I am going to switch over. ☺ Hopefully it works just as great on my skin. After everyone was done ordering my aunt made delicious sandwiches’ that she marinade and we all hung out and chatted. Then, it was time to party! Lol My aunt came upstairs from the downstairs bar with two pitchers, one margarita, and one was a pomegranate cranberry vodka drink. Needless to say I decided to stay at her house that night. I didn’t want to worry about driving home. I hung out with my aunts and their friends, drank, and had a truly amazing time. It was great!!!!! I needed that time with them so much. I am a lot like one of my aunts, we just really connect. I can talk to her about anything and she can totally relate. Plus, we are both outspoken and like to have fun! lol So I stayed there woke up, hung out with everyone over coffee and then headed home! Played with Madison until the Bulls game and then went over to the guys house to watch the game. There were about 12 of us, we hung out had some drinks watched the Bulls play a damn good game again Miami. I’m not going to lie at first I though they were going to get stomped. Then they totally redeemed their selves! I don’t understand how people can say that the Bulls don’t need Rose. Ugh yeah we have a good team but he is amazing! Either way It was a good game! ☺ Then This morning I woke up and now it’s clean up time! Vacuum, laundry, I’ll tell ya, my laundry and vacuuming is double now with Madison! Her white hair gets everywhere!!! That little stinker! Needless to say I’ve a lot of work to do today!

We were talking about he little things. I have big dreams and I want to accomplish a lot in my life but none of that takes away from the little things that make me happy. The late night conversations, the tipsy dancing in the living rooms at 2 am, my puppy leaning on me while I’m getting ready, the way everyone holds their coffee cup different, or even the way this am when I did dished I knew who everyone’s wine glass was. Three sitting by the sink, one with lipstick (lois’s), One with water from thawed ice cubes (Tina’s), and the last one.. was the last glass out of my favorite set ( my friends broke the other 3) lol. <3 Great weekend XOXO

I hope everyone has a great week!
XOXO
Madden

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Let’s kick 2012 in to gear with nothing but AWESOMENESS!!!! 2011 was one hell of a year but one great year at that! Anyone make any New Year’s resolutions? I didn’t, I am going to work on everything I need to through out the whole year! My New Years was simply amazing! All my friends met up at the guys house, we pre drank, and then went out for the countdown! You know it was a good one when I woke up in my disco ball dress the next day! lol

My Christmas was simple and awesome! I went to my mom’s, then brothers, and after that came back to my house and had a bonfire! I burned all the boxes, wrapping paper and garbage! My house no longer has decorations up, I never ended up getting a tree up. With moving and all the chaos it just didn’t happen. But hey, I have all the pink, black, and silver ornaments for next years tree from my party!!!! After it was over I just wanted to do a deep cleaning to my house and get it all out of my way so I could “scrub a dub dub!!” It seems like this Holiday season lasted forever! Don’t get me wrong I LOVE the Holidays but I am so ready to get into a routine again and get things done! I feel like every time I start on something it gets put off! Because, there is are plans I have to make or attend. Glad this season was awesome and super happy to start the new year!

What was your most memorable event from 2011? I cant think of one, but I can think of some highlights like finishing in top 3rd for motocross, getting my Associate’s, and all the concerts I attended!! I would love to hear yours too! All and all I am ready to kick some serious ass this year!

This weekend I am going to watch the semi motocross pro’s race in Ohio. It is going to be awesome. Then if I get back in time on Sunday I am going to go to some outdoor quad ice races in good ‘ol Wisconsin! I plan on doing a lot of traveling this year. Before I start school again in the fall. I wanna go to Texas again, Tennessee, California, Utah, and Las Vegas baby Let’s hope it’s a GREAT year and I can go!!!

XOXO,

Madden

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Yesterday I went to my first Bears game of the season and dammit they lost! Grrr. We need Cutler back!

I am sorry that I haven’t been able to get on here and update this baby more. I finally got a verizon card so it’s slow as hell but at least I have something now!!! wooohoooo I have been crazy busy lately with all of this moving stuff. I finally have all of my stuff moved in, that was a task. After all this moving I think that I am going to start getting rid of a lot of my stuff. I love decorating and having a nice cozy home but damn it gets to be a lot having to move it all the time. Hopefully I will be able to stop moving for a while! lol I am signing up for school for next semester and I will be posted for a while! Hopefully everything works out here and I will not have to move for a while! After breaking my phone, no internet, and moving I have been totally out of the loop with everything! Time to get back into the swing of things!

Time to get started on the Holiday season! I am going to go shopping this weekend to get some Christmas gifts for the family! Then do a good cleaning on the floors so that I can put up a CHRISTMAS TREEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!!! I’m so excited to go and cut down a tree, get some hot chocolate, and cookies! I am going to decorate the house with lights and really get festive!!!!

This week I will be busy studying for finals….. YUK! I will be so happy when this semester is over. Then on to the next. I will graduate this semester though! At the end of the month! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO

As everyone knows that was on my chat last week, I am now a momma of a puppy dog! She is a little bundle of energy! First time I have ever had any kind of dog besides a pure bred pit bull and she is wild. Apparently labs are a lil crazy! lol No she is very high strung but she is awesome. She’s a lab and pit mix, she looks like a lab but her hair and markings are like a pit. She a little sweetheart. Definitely keeps me on my toes! There is a picture on my twitter of her! Check her out! I named her Madison. <3

It snowed a little bit over the weekend but nothing that stayed on the ground though. I am ready to hit the slopes that’s forsure. Come on SNOW!!!!

XOXO

Madden

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Here are pics of me being a cock! Oh wait I mean PEACOCK!!!! lol What a blast this night was!!! Getting ready with the girls at my BFF’s house, going out and having an amazing night! AND weekend! I made my whole feathers myself and put my whole costume together! I am very proud of my creation! It was so much fun! I painted my nails, my make up was fun and wild and I had purple contacts in!!!! SO awesome! I hope you guys like it as much as I did!!!!!!! The pics are in opposite order so start from the bottom and the watch the night progress! haha

XOXO

Madden

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Hope everyone had a GREAT weekend! Mine was pretty chilled out! It was nice! I hung out with my mom on Friday and had dinner then went and met up with some friends for a little while. Then, sat I watched college footballlllllll!!! N went to bed early! I know, i know it sounds lame but it felt so good!!!! I slept with the window open and it was a nice chilled breeze! Perfect sleeping weather! Sunday I hung out watched more football and then went to watch a friend play soccer! It was a great weekend!

Now this week my big things are a doctors appointment and school. Not too crazy! It’s going to be nice and chill. <3 love, love, love it. I’ve had a crazy couple months and now I feel like i can finally breath! Thanks god!

I went shopping for a Halloween costumer 3x and I can’t find one that I like enough to buy! I think this year I am going to make one! Any suggestions!? I have a couple ideas in mind but I would love to hear others!

I wanna say “Thank you!!!” to all my Ebay buyers! I will keep going through and getting things posted so you can bid on them! It’s so exciting to see what people like! I am thinking of putting up the pink and zebra bra and thong set that is on the front of my website but I just don’t know yet….. lol what do you guys think?

So I broke the back of my iphone 4 a couple weeks ago, I just received another back cover to replace it and sure enough the day I got the back cover I broke the front!!! Dammit! So I ordered a front cover! Lets hope it gets here fast!!!! Can you believe that luck!!? haha don’t pay the $200 deductible for a cracked cover! I have a website you can order them off of for like 8 bucks!!!! AWESOME!

Just a note for the day… Mean people suck.

I hope everyone has a great week! luv ya tons! xoxo

Madden

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I am not going to lie. It has been a couple of really hard weeks lately. For about 3 weeks now, it’s been tough. Coping with deaths, getting sick, and crazy weather changes have really sent me through a loop. I’ve felt like I haven’t been as energetic the last month and a half. Then I started to get stressed and sick. I guess sometimes everything just hits you at once. It seems like when it rains, it pours. I just need a little break. I just want to be around positive. As you guys know I have a couple best girl friends and every one of them is going through MAJOR relationship problems, money problems, and along with those comes lots of stress. Fucking A! I tried to help but with everything going on with me I couldn’t help them because I wasn’t okay myself. So I hate to say it but I had to get away from everyone and everything for a little bit. It feels like we are all so toxic right now. I just left for a day, went to the river and did absolutely whatever I wanted to do. I walked in the water, looked for shells, feel asleep on the bridge and watched the schools of fish swim. I just needed to get the hell away. I was gone for hours and I didn’t have music, people, or a phone to get to me. I found lots of clams, drove my truck through the creek and yes almost got it stuck. But I didn’t care. I was happy and stress free. It felt great. I took it in and chilled out and then it was back to reality and everything going on. I felt better though. I realized that I couldn’t help my friends with their problems because I am not healed from my relationship problems and I don’t need to take on so much. I do because I care, but for me I have to back off and only do what I can. Now this is all of course waaaay easier said than done but it has helped make me feel better. Do you ever hang on to things that you know you should let go? Dwell on things that you know you couldn’t change? Well if you do then maybe you understand where I am coming from. Like I said I am trying to step back and only do what I can and let go of the past. So needless to say my friends and I had a terrible week. To make anyone happy you have to be happy with yourself first. That is a fact. So I hope that everyone who reads this does something good for YOU today. If you are happy, and healthy then life in general is a better. So to make a long story short my week is WAAAy better than last. I feel better :) Things are going good. I am healthier, happier, and moving forward.

 

XOXO

Madden

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