I am not going to lie. It has been a couple of really hard weeks lately. For about 3 weeks now, it’s been tough. Coping with deaths, getting sick, and crazy weather changes have really sent me through a loop. I’ve felt like I haven’t been as energetic the last month and a half. Then I started to get stressed and sick. I guess sometimes everything just hits you at once. It seems like when it rains, it pours. I just need a little break. I just want to be around positive. As you guys know I have a couple best girl friends and every one of them is going through MAJOR relationship problems, money problems, and along with those comes lots of stress. Fucking A! I tried to help but with everything going on with me I couldn’t help them because I wasn’t okay myself. So I hate to say it but I had to get away from everyone and everything for a little bit. It feels like we are all so toxic right now. I just left for a day, went to the river and did absolutely whatever I wanted to do. I walked in the water, looked for shells, feel asleep on the bridge and watched the schools of fish swim. I just needed to get the hell away. I was gone for hours and I didn’t have music, people, or a phone to get to me. I found lots of clams, drove my truck through the creek and yes almost got it stuck. But I didn’t care. I was happy and stress free. It felt great. I took it in and chilled out and then it was back to reality and everything going on. I felt better though. I realized that I couldn’t help my friends with their problems because I am not healed from my relationship problems and I don’t need to take on so much. I do because I care, but for me I have to back off and only do what I can. Now this is all of course waaaay easier said than done but it has helped make me feel better. Do you ever hang on to things that you know you should let go? Dwell on things that you know you couldn’t change? Well if you do then maybe you understand where I am coming from. Like I said I am trying to step back and only do what I can and let go of the past. So needless to say my friends and I had a terrible week. To make anyone happy you have to be happy with yourself first. That is a fact. So I hope that everyone who reads this does something good for YOU today. If you are happy, and healthy then life in general is a better. So to make a long story short my week is WAAAy better than last. I feel better Things are going good. I am healthier, happier, and moving forward.